have i hit the hill?

i'm reading the nytimes wedding announcements online.

this has to be the last straw. i mean, who reads these things except women who want to get married? and i certainly don't want to get married. well, not yet.

i've never been one of those girls who envisage her wedding day. ok maybe once, in a moment of weakness. i thought about what would have happened if the one who got away and i got hitched. hamptons beach wedding, cozy but very stylish decor. great food. fine wine. jazz band, and friends jamming. i've never though about what i would wear, except not a mereunge. i haven't even thought about the designer, although vera wang is conventionally beautiful. i guess i'm trying to recreate my friend's wedding in australia on a tiny beach island a few years back. barefoot guests in glam evening gear dancing in the grass to a live jazz band on the deck. friends from all around the world gathered together to celebrate the love.

but reading the nytimes wedding style section. i must be losing it.

meanwhile, another counselling session with web guy. maybe that's my problem with all men. my agony aunt to my friends, so agony aunt vibe spreads to all men who see me as maiden aunt rather than sexy ailf.

who knows.

more whiskey awaits.