so hannukah and christmas has come and gone and i've re-arranged my wardrobe, hung new pictures, not cleaned my apartment, and drank way too much champagne. and the thing about the holidays this year is tomorrow we're all due back at work.

i've been feeling lost - part of it is the fact that for a meglomaniac workaholic like me, a mere few days of not working takes some getting used to. but perhaps the other part is wondering when i'm going to start my life. or make my life into what i've always dreamt of.

some people say that this is my life and it just makes me mad that this is all i have amounted to. i have so much more potential. there should be so much more in my life, in my career. i want to be successful - in what i do, and yes, i want a man who absolutely adores me and think that i'm the one he chooses to be with. a man with his own successful life and accomplishments who think i complete him.