crushed

so i have a crush on a man who doesn't even know my name.
he knows i exist and i think he's attractive, which i suppose at least doesn't make this as pathetic as it could be. and i know he doesn't have a girlfriend, because he told me, but not necessarily through the ideal scenario.

and as i suspected, i've joined this group of women who meet and become infatuated with him. i hate being a number, hate being a member of a group of people all united in some futile emotion.

i guess when you write good music, like any art, it touches people in some way and in moving them also inspires a wild affection. music is rawer than acting because it comes from who you really are. it's like writing, or art.

i really must stop getting attracted to all these creative types. it's just doing my head in. but hey at least i've been attracted to three guys this year. that's quite an achievement for me.