bemused, bothered and bewildered

this morning i woke up to a meg ryan billy crystal when harry met sally scenario.
i'd somehow ended up naked in bed with im guy, who'd become a very good friend in the past few weeks. and he's interested in someone else. and funnily enough we'd gone out with me as his wing girl at this soiree his ex was at. where i was also kinda flirting with some guy we'd met.

and i'm totally confused. i'm old enough to know better but i'm still way confused. like cher from clueless, i'm totally clueless. i know he thinks i'm attractive. he knows i think he's attractive. he knows i liked him because i pretty much told him so. and part of me knows he was drunk and after seeing his ex with someone else thought why not i like this girl i feel comfortable with her and she's cute and she's wanting to sleep with someone so hey this is a good thing. i don't think it was just a loneliness thing though. it's also a we get along well so hey let's have some fun.

heck i don't know. i'm so confused. i like him very much as a friend but i'm not sure if i'm interested in him that way, despite being attracted to him. and in the words of marie from when harry met sally 'you should never go to bed with someone when you find out your exboyfriend is getting married' - or in our case you should never go to bed with someone when you've been out seeing your ex whom you still like crack on to some random whom she likes.

i kinda like this weirdness, but i'm impatient and i want resolution. i don't think we'll see each other for a while as he's going away (why is it everytime i end up with someone he's going away or i am...)

i'm such a person of smells, i like that my sheets still smell of him. that's quite unhealthy isn't it?