sunshine, lollipops and rainbows
I read an article recently about what is the song that plays in your mind, your heart.
And i guess I'm an optimist. for me, that song is 'sunshine, lollipops and rainbows'. though i've never felt that song in real life. maybe one day.
i've also realised that i need to let go of hope. i've kept a bottle of my last squeeze's favorite beer in the fridge. one bottle. i guess it was a stupid, romantic, optimistic view that he would realise that he wants to be with me and he's made a huge mistake.
but the reality is, he didn't want to be with me. we weren't right for each other. he let me down, i optimistically and stupidly thought he would come around. do some great big gesture. read this and realise that he made a huge stupid mistake. but life doesn't happen like that. in real life, you're just the transitional person to help them regain confidence. to give them the strength to pursue some crazy thing with someone whom they have a more amazing connection with that makes two people change who they are because they love each other enough.
and, as the years go by, you realise that it's never going to happen. you have a vague hope that one day, even if you're in your 70s you'll meet that guy who's the one. but you know that it's not really going to happen. and maybe you need to face up to the fact that life isn't a romantic comedy. and your role is to be that transitional person for every guy you've known since you were 16. it's not great, but at least you're finally coming to terms with your role in this universe.
And i guess I'm an optimist. for me, that song is 'sunshine, lollipops and rainbows'. though i've never felt that song in real life. maybe one day.
i've also realised that i need to let go of hope. i've kept a bottle of my last squeeze's favorite beer in the fridge. one bottle. i guess it was a stupid, romantic, optimistic view that he would realise that he wants to be with me and he's made a huge mistake.
but the reality is, he didn't want to be with me. we weren't right for each other. he let me down, i optimistically and stupidly thought he would come around. do some great big gesture. read this and realise that he made a huge stupid mistake. but life doesn't happen like that. in real life, you're just the transitional person to help them regain confidence. to give them the strength to pursue some crazy thing with someone whom they have a more amazing connection with that makes two people change who they are because they love each other enough.
and, as the years go by, you realise that it's never going to happen. you have a vague hope that one day, even if you're in your 70s you'll meet that guy who's the one. but you know that it's not really going to happen. and maybe you need to face up to the fact that life isn't a romantic comedy. and your role is to be that transitional person for every guy you've known since you were 16. it's not great, but at least you're finally coming to terms with your role in this universe.
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