i was ichating with chemistry boy the other night. amongst other things he said that he enjoyed our non-sexual snooze that afternoon. typically as a female i'm thinking 'what does he mean? does he just mean that as nice like you would after a good meal? or does he actually like spending time with me when it's pg fun?'

i hardly know him. and it's not like i'm desperate for male attention. or that i feel this amazing connection of souls. but i find myself becoming quite fond of him. even though i have a feeling i'm serving a transitional-get-over-ex role in his life.

my friend maddison was in town the other day. and we talked about her new boyfriend, and the men i am dating. she said she gets butterflies when she sees her boyfriend. i don't think i've ever had butterflies. maybe once kissing my college boyfriend. for me, it's either going through the motions because you just gotta get some, it's friendly, or it's hot with this magnetic field of sorts.

i like this field, this energy that creates a slight buzz when you're with them. it's not constant, it happens when you least expect it. like when you're sitting in a car together driving to work on monday morning and you just feel this slight buzz. where you just want to reach across and kiss them senseless. only they are probably consumed by what is happening at work that day and thus unaware of it all. it's hard to tell with english guys if they feel the same way you do and are holding everything back in that mr. darcy way. or if they really don't give a shit and you're just imagining it all in your head. although i think i'm old enough to trust my gut instinct - usually if i suspect and man is interested, he is. at least for a nookie...