tonight i went to my favorite local bar with my friend carrie. and spent most of the time cruising a guy at the other side of the bar.

sometimes i wonder if i have a beacon to only attract old middle eastern men when walking through the park. men my age seem to shun me. cruised boy looked my way a few times, but didn't bother coming over, nor trying to make extended eye contact. it's enough to make a girl question her own sexiness. not to mention my body has got into hybernation mode and everything is now slightly wider.

ah well. at least i have my health.