summertime, and where's the lovin'

on sunday night i had a drink with whilemina and listened to the latest installment in her saga with her mr big. they get drunk, or not drunk, have great sex, then freak out on each other. she wants a relationship, he doesn't, even though they both, as the english say, fancy the pants of each other.

willie has this resilliance with men. she bounces back fighting their idiocy, frustrated and fed up yet never loosing that glimmer of hope. like savannah, she views all occassions with a potential to meet men factor. because she lacks savannah's cynicism, she usually does much better.

i confessed to willie i'd given up on men. i don't mean to. it's just in 2 years i've been attracted to two guys, and both haven't worked out. it's not rocket science. but my chemistry just doesn't work with anyone i've met. to save myself the hassle of yet another dissappointment, i've resigned myself to the fact that it's just me, and my increasingly coupled up friends.

but on summer nights like tonight, i do wish i had someone to go home to. or some rich boyfriend with a great pad i can go hang out in.

non dates are better than dates

tonight i had drinks with a buddy.
totally random. i was having dinner with a friend in the east when i got his text about meeting up. so i was like yeah, in an hour if you're still around.

so we had a drink at my favorite cafe bar (very french) and shot the breeze. it was fun, talking about anything and everything. movies, crying in movies, and my constantly baggin him out for being a vegetarian.

it's fun nights like this that makes me think i don't need to date. problem is it doesn't solve the whole sex thing. itches are meant to be scratched.

wrong girl, wrong time

it's official. i'm in a desert of dating.
savannah's friend is back with his ex. im boy is obsessed with a bestfriend-turned-naked-friend.

out of a potential of two, i'm down to zero. the attraction they feel to these other women is substantial and deep as they and my (subjective?) friends admit the people these two are attraced to don't match up to my looks. personality wise it's hard to judge - i mean, i hardly know these girls and neither do my girlfriends.

so what this means is that i'm lacking in some spark these days. today definitely. hellish day at work, but that's normal. so why am i bummed? it can't be just the guy thing. it's like i need to get my life in order. and it's not.