a slight drizzle

it seems that i either like no one, and like no one for months, and then suddenly in the space of a fortnight i like two people. makes life more dramatic, but i'd like a more even pace of drama. though maybe then it would be less fun.

interestingly both men are english, and not american, so i must be breaking a trend. and neither of them work in an industry that is media, fashion or creatively based. that's right, they aren't directors, musicians, advertisers, designers, or stylists. how i ended up here i have no idea, but my friends take it as a good sign as creatively inclined men are now apparently banned by my group of friends because the novelty of the dramas i encounter whilst dating them have lost its charm.

these new guys are completely different to any men i've ever been attracted to. not just in their jobs, but in their culture and their physical looks. and they are both closely connected to people i really care about and love. which makes it a little bit difficult. they're both really smart guys, really loved by my friends. i'm attracted to both of them. one is slightly more mad and i guess close to who i am as a person. the other i know is the type of man that anchors a girl, the type that would be supportive and loving. the the second guy is the one whom i know will be interested in pursuing something more than just sex. the first guy has basically showed me his cards and confessed he's not in a relationship space at the moment. and although i don't know if i want a relationship with him, i do know we have chemistry. and it's been so long since i've just wanted to grab someone and all i want to do is just kiss them. just completely and utterly kiss them as deeply and passionately as i can.